Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Hey All,
So I've had an insanely busy last couple days and I'm finally getting a chance to breath tonight.

Over the weekend I went to see Rach in upstate. It was nice to get away from the madness of the city and just relax. We originally had plans to go to Canada on Saturday but due to our own tiredness and rainy weather we decided to postpone Canada.
On Saturday we ended up getting some laundry done and buying groceries and that's it! Hhahaha Honestly though it was great to just get some things done and hang out at the house. Sunday we visited the Burrville Cider Mill and had an early dinner with a few of the other army wives that Rach is friends with. It was a relaxing but short weekend.
I didn't take as many pictures as I would have liked while there but here are a few recent pics of Sophie and Issac!






After my relaxing weekend I came back to the city to a very stressful Monday. I got back to Queens at about 11:00pm. By the time I got all my stuff in the apartment and took a quick shower it was 11:30. I had a short convo with Ali, stayed up and chatted (why does that not sound right??) with Reena for a while and finally went to bed around midnight.
I had to be up by 6:45 to get my butt to work at 8...and of course I was 15 minutes late. Work was insane because I was the only case manager there out of 4!!! So everyone's clients came to me because their cm wasn't there!!! Then I had to rush from work to get to class at 4:40, of course late again, and had 2 classes until 8:50. At my second class, statistics, I got good and bad news. The good news was that I got a 92% on my statistics test...the bad news, in one of my other classes, contemporary theory, I found out a paper that I thought needed to be 3-4 pages actually needs to be 10-15 pages!! AHHHH
I'm beyond annoyed with my theory class. To attempt be as PC as possible, lets just say my professor's teaching style does not work well for me :). Theory is the hardest course you can take in any subject because it's the foundation of any subject and to have a teacher who's "teaching style" doesn't work well with you makes it VERY difficult. I ranted to my mom's voicemail last night about this 10page paper discovery so I'll save you all from a long spew about this :)

Today, Tuesday, wasn't such a bad day because thank the lord, all case managers were at work today. It was a very cold, rainy day though and I'm not looking forward to the short days that come with winter. I'm going to miss the beautiful colors of fall but I guess I would't appreciate fall so much if I didn't have the winter.

I better go and make some dinner. I'm excited to finally have some control over my dinners and to get some good ol' Amurican food ;)

Love
Sarah

Friday, October 24, 2008

I'm BACK!!!

Hello my very loved friends and fam,

I know...don't say it...it's been about 2 months. I know I've been absent but the past 2 months have been filled with pain, challenge and growth.

I assumed when I began this blog that it would be a way for me to express my thoughts and feelings, however in the last 2 months the idea of putting my experience out there for all the world to read and know what a bit too overwhelming. I know this blog will only cause even more curiosity, and all I can say is over time you will receive enough pieces of the story to eventually fully understand. I have one gift that I request right now - TIME. Time to process my experience and develop strength from it. Time to reveal my story when I feel its best suited, not just for the sake of your curiosity.

God gives us all challenges in life. God chooses different points in our lives to experience growth spurts, and he has chosen this time for me. God has things he wants me to learn that will enable me to live me best life. The image I have of myself is not what God wants. My self image needs some work, and God has chosen now to do some work.

I know my decisions my not make sense or be at the pace that some of you may want them. I know all of the concern and questions come from love.

I'm glad I've gotten back to a point where I feel I can begin sharing again...so stayed tuned :)

I'm heading to my sister's this weekend in upstate NY and I plan to update you all on Sunday.

I love you all and thanks for your support!

Sarah